15 years in a blink...
and I still wonder why.
A cold wet foggy day, 15 years ago today I lost one of the best friends I have ever had. I didn't really think the date would affect me, but I've been upset for for a few days, as well as my brother's passing Halloween seven years ago.
Today is cold and wet and rainy, much like that day 15 long years ago. She was so full of life and compassion for others. I took it pretty hard, abused my system for several months with liquor. There is absolutely no material thing I wouldn't give to have her here now. When she died she was pregnant with my best friend's child.
The summer of '97 we had just started a band...I was learning guitar, she was the vocalist. I stopped playing for over 5 years....sometimes it's still hard to even listen to a song and think how much she would like it. Music was our bond.
The weekend before she died, there was a huge argument with her, her husband of 5 months (my best friend), my first wife, and myself. Some mean things were said, but before we left that night, we'd made our peace, and swore that the following weekend, we'd leave ALL the demons at the door and we'd start doing some constructive song writing and moving up a level from before. That was November 2nd...and that was the last time I ever saw her.
For a long time I carried guilt, despite my buddy Kev telling me that she was glad we'd had the fight because it cleared up the tension and that she wasn't angry with me, but still, I had problems for a few years.
I can say this...never ever fail to tell a loved one what they mean to you, and never the last words you have with someone be harsh and full of hate or anger.
Above all else, please buckle up and be safe.
RIP Bobbie Jo...we will meet again. 
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