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And Eric, as far as Florida falling in the ocean...everything east of the San Andreas fault will eventually plunge into the Atlantic
anyway! ;)

if your a good person you'll hope he pulls through, or you can be a complete inconsiderate, untollerable, narcisistic dick.

if your a good person you'll hope he pulls through, or you can be a complete inconsiderate, untollerable, narcisistic dick.

first off, im not taking sides............................................................................................. if your a good person you'll hope he pulls through, or you can be a complete inconsiderate, untollerable, narcisistic dick.

I'm a good person.
I used to truly care about him.
I used to try and be tolerant about his rants.
3+ years of shiznit so thick you couldn't shovel it anymore, all the while degrading, deriding, condescending, attacking and annoying virtually everyone on this board...that's what did it.

When someone comes into your house day after day, starts breaking all your valuables, yells and screams at you, curls into a ball in the corner and starts crying, saying it's all your fault, and then leaves without a hint of an apology...what exactly would you do again? His being on medication or not, you'll be pissed sooner or later. It all depends on how much of that kind of BS you want to put up with. He can go about his business and rant all he wants. It's a free world. He's just not doing it here.

If that makes me a dick...so be it. I honestly don't care what people think of me. There are way too many other things in life that are way more important. But when someone can't play nicely with others in the sandbox, the admins have the responsibility to do something...and we did. It's been an extremely smooth board without him, at least until this thread resurrected all the .

What was there to do about me, Eric? Nothing.. I was the one who quietly disconnected myself from here.. I was happy to leave myself logged out and maybe click the link back here every couple weeks or so and not post a  thing. Even through the beginning of this shiznit-stirring thread I was content to let it slide until you opened your ****ing mouth and added to the problem. Some ****ing admin you are, bubba. "Yeah, I'm going to solve the problem by running my mouth like an ignorant little pen 15sucker". That worked REALLY well. What a man you are.

So it looks like you ****ed around with my account while I had been away for weeks or months, and made it so my posts wouldn't automatically show up for everyone. What was the point? I told Carmen I was stepping back from posting here, thanks for everything, see ya 'round, whatever. You "solved" a problem that didn't exist anymore. Just like JeremyB going fishing for my profile when I hadn't posted in a long time.. I think you went looking for something to **** with, with your favorite person to **** with whenever you get a wild hair up your ass. It's easy to demonize me, especially when I'm not around, isn't it?

Autocat nailed it on the head.. some of you people have no ****ing clue how it feels to be messed up all the time. Constantly unable to focus on anything. Anxious about everything, no matter how trivial. At the time I left I was in clear overdose of the last anti-depressant I was on.. took me a month or two just to get that even reasonably under control.. and then coming off that, the major depression kicks in. I've spent nights lately telling myself not to blow my ****ing head off.. then telling myself it's just the gap in between the old meds and the new meds, and I'll get through it eventually. When you go through shiznit like that, you have NO patience left for someone else's bug up their ass about Arabs or Rosie fat-**** O'Donnell or Toyota in TRASHCAR or whatever the average mouthy redneck is bitching about these days. But of course, you'll just blow all this shiznit off as me complaining again and go right back to demonizing the different guy.

Let me further illustrate that difference: If I had said I left here to get my act together and find g*d or some bullshiznit like that, I'm guessing you all would have a much more forgiving attitude because that's the standard cry of the weak when they wanna absolve themselves of all the stupid shiznit they've done in the past and carry on as if nothing happened. "g*d'll forgive me.. it worked for Mike Tyson, so it'll work for a ****up like me! Yee-Haw!" Me, on the other hand, I'm not going to sit here and claim I haven't said and done some REALLY annoying things here and everywhere else I've been.. but I'm not going to pretend that finding some fictitious character from an old book and a hokey old religion would suddenly make everything peachy-keen between me and the rest of the world.

As for apologies.. most of the time I don't bother. What has been said, has been said.. if some here were truly offended by it, some weak-ass apology isn't going to cut it.. and frankly, I save the meaningful apologies for the people who matter, for the times when it really matters to make such an apology. Anyway, just about everyone who has ever liked me as a person has hated me at one point.. so I'm used to it. (the being hated part, that is)

Yeah, Eric, you "truly used to care".. for what, five minutes? You and I haven't got along for more than that in this whole time I've been around. You "cared" just long enough to be able to claim you did, and then realized, "Hey.. whenever my life is g in my Corn Flakes, this looks like a good guy to rag on to make myself feel better!". Whatever floats your boat.. you wouldn't be the first, and I've been all too glad to return the favor anytime you felt the need.

I made my post before, and this reply to your verbal diarrhea, with the hopes that you kids (mental age) would all get it out of your system and move on. Whatever bug crawled up your asses that made you decide to dredge up my name after months of inactivity, hopefully bitching about these posts will clear it up and you'll go back to whatever it is you were doing. Find someone new to be your faceless enemy of convenience. "But Ben, you're not faceless.. we know your name.." you might think. Well the only reason you know my name is because Tom used it. It had always been my intent to try to keep this place somewhat at arm's reach. (and I'm not the only one who isn't comfortable with the first-name-basis thing) Had he discussed it with me beforehand, I'd have asked him not to.. but Tom's a good guy, so I forgive him. You all could stand to learn a few things from him that aren't car-related.

Oh, and one last thing: Keep going on and on about how I'm such an evil pot smoker when A) some of your fellow boardmates smoke far more than I do and may eventually tire of your idiotic antics, and B) I haven't smoked in months. Even if I were still smoking, it wouldn't be more than an occasional thing because it's way too easy to lose yourself in it, and wake up realizing you just blew a month or two of your life away laying on the couch. That's counterproductive to my efforts to get out of this hole I'm in.

Have a day, ladies.

Just like JeremyB going fishing for my profile when I hadn't posted in a long time.. I think you went looking for something to **** with, with your favorite person to **** with whenever you get a wild hair up your ass.

If any of you must know why I left, (and left quietly in PMs, unlike drama-queen Claude among others.. betcha forgot about that one, huh?) I'm trying to get my shiznit together. Trying to reduce stress.. lower my blood pressure.. focus on learning a trade skill.. and none of that is served well by posting regularly in a place so full of people I'm a world away from on worldview.

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For the record, Ben, Eric did not unilaterally "fvck" with your account. As admins we have a responsibility to keep the peace here. There are over 1500 members of this board, and some are not going to get along with others. Most admins of other boards would have banned you for some of your posts and been done with it. In fact, most admins especially don't take kindly to attacking them directly and personally - the fact Eric didn't ban your ass the first time says a lot for his integrity. We all decided that something had to be done, and we all decided that "Coventry" (which, BTW, is the name for being placed in a universal ignore list instead of being banned outright) was the best option. That way all of your posts, post counts, rep points, and everything else to do with your membership remain intact, should you get well and decide to return.

And as for "Counterproductive": Believe me, and I speak from experience - nothing is more counterproductive than miring yourself i self pity and bitterness. I was in that situation after my career-ending car accident in 1998, and I was spiraling in a big way. It was actually a near tragedy that shook me out of my funk and made me sit up and realize: The world isn't going to come to me to make things better. I had to be proactive about it. That "near tragedy"? When I bounced my '88 Cougar off a tractor trailer at 60 MPH in April, 1999. I had been seeing a therapist over depression before that accident and saw him immediately after, and when he asked me if the accident was really an "accident", it made me think. Consciously it was certainly an accident, as I certainly didn't make the conscious decision to stuff my car into a moving target of 40 tons of carrots, but maybe sub-consciously... I know that at that point I really didn't give a rat's ass about anything. That changed overnight, when I realized I was killing myself.

I hope that you can pull yourself out of your hole as well, Ben before tragedy strikes you, but I mean it (and mean no disrespect) when I say this: You, and only you, will pull yourself out of it.