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You're just SO ****ing innocent, Eric. What were those PMs about wishing my entire ****ing state would fall off into the ocean and take me with it? Beat any dogs lately? Scumbag. You're truly a lowlife piece of shiznit, and that's saying something coming from a guy who most would consider a loser. (and hey, there's probably more than a grain of truth to it) Whatever I may be, and it probably isn't good.. I will always think you're beneath me, Eric. But hey, keep living in your little world filled with people who will suck your dick and prop you up just because they secretly want first crack at that  overdone ragtop of yours if and when you finally tire of it. Of course it'll be the one thing you hang onto until your dying day, and you can't take it with you when you go, so it will have ultimately meant nothing. Know that SNL skit with the guy humping his Mercury? That's a good start on how I see ya, pal.

Figures some shiznit-stirring little ****up like JeremyB would be poking around looking for trouble and bring my name up. What, was it a slow week and you felt like throwing your toys out of the crib for no particular reason? I was content to quietly visit the board every so often without being logged in, and was perfectly happy with not being mentioned by anyone. Aside from Tom, Paul, Oldraven, the guy that bought my '86, and the people on my AIM list, I don't give a shiznit how most of you feel about me, good or bad.. and I'm not sorry if that offends you. Most people these days only seem to be pretending to give a **** what anyone else thinks if they're not ****ing them or trying to get ****ed, (and even then they're probably still pretending) so at least I'm giving you the courtesy of being honest.

If any of you must know why I left, (and left quietly in PMs, unlike drama-queen Claude among others.. betcha forgot about that one, huh?) I'm trying to get my shiznit together. Trying to reduce stress.. lower my blood pressure.. focus on learning a trade skill.. and none of that is served well by posting regularly in a place so full of people I'm a world away from on worldview. You say I'm closed off to your opinions.. well did you ever think that maybe I've heard your opinions a million ****ing times already from all around me, and I disagreed with them then and you just don't have the charisma and strength of personality to alter that? (and there's nothing wrong with that.. people disagree.. shiznit happens) It's not so much your opinions that aggravate me most of the time, it's that it gets annoyingly repetitive after awhile.. and so many opinions these days are so polarized. I'm not a Demo or Repugnant.. I'm not a christian or a muslim.. I'm not a patriot or a terrorist.. and it's really hard to deal with that sometimes when you're surrounded by people who think along the lines of "well if you're not X, you must be Y". I try to wake up most days pretty calm and neutral about the world around me, with a sense of wonder of the majesty of the natural world around me.. but then I see some report of the latest nitwit who thought they saw Jesus in their morning power-dump and it all comes crashing down. The endless repetition of the quasi-conservative holier-than-thou jingoistic small-mindedness that's infecting this country (and the whiny insufferable holier-than-thou smarter-than-you claptrap of the minority on the other side of the same shiznit-covered coin) is like a hundred little crashes a day.

"Yuh don't like it, leeve!", some idiot redneck would say.. well that would be fine, and I'd love to move to some quiet little corner of New Zealand where no one will give a shiznit about all this madness, but it isn't that easy. It takes money, and lots of it.. it takes some really harsh choices about family.. and it takes a marketable skill. One I don't have.. the next I'm having a big struggle over.. and the last I'm working on. It doesn't happen overnight. What, did you think that everyone any of you have ever said that particular line to is going to say "Yes, you're quite right my good fellow, I do not like it here.. so I am going to up and move to Iraq tomorrow and if my family doesn't like it, well **** them with a fencepost!"? I'm unhappy, not stupid or completely thoughtless to those who DO matter to me.

At any rate, I doubt any of you will read most of that. (so really, I could've said whatever the **** I wanted to) You'll just look for parts where you may have been mentioned or may have found something to be offended about, and harp on about that for awhile until you get whatever bug's in your ass, out. That's fine. Who knows if I'll keep to it, but I really don't intend on following up this post. I've already doubled my blood pressure medication three times, I'm on my second anti-depressant, I'm on the aspirin anti-heart-attack regimen, and I'm overdue for a visit for the heart doctor. Not how I envisioned spending the 35th year of my life.. and I don't need to be adding to all that by getting caught up in the madness again. Two episodes of chest pains in six months is enough, thanks. You all have fun bitching and moaning that this post was too long or that I said **** too many times or that it didn't rain 50 dollar bills or whatever.

At any rate, I doubt any of you will read most of that. (so really, I could've said whatever the **** I wanted to) You'll just look for parts where you may have been mentioned or may have found something to be offended about, and harp on about that for awhile until you get whatever bug's in your ass, out. That's fine. Who knows if I'll keep to it, but I really don't intend on following up this post. I've already doubled my blood pressure medication three times, I'm on my second anti-depressant, I'm on the aspirin anti-heart-attack regimen, and I'm overdue for a visit for the heart doctor. Not how I envisioned spending the 35th year of my life.. and I don't need to be adding to all that by getting caught up in the madness again. Two episodes of chest pains in six months is enough, thanks. You all have fun bitching and moaning that this post was too long or that I said **** too many times or that it didn't rain 50 dollar bills or whatever.

What were those PMs about wishing my entire ****ing state would fall off into the ocean and take me with it?